NF - The Search

I'm sorry.

Hey Nate, how's life?

I don't know.

It's alright.

I've been dealing with some things like every human being and really didn't sleep much last night.

I'm sorry.

That's fine.

I just think I need a little me time.

I just think I need a little free time.

Little break from the shows and the bus rides.

Yeah.

Last year I had a breakdown.

thoughts telling me I'm lost getting too loud had to see a therapist and I found out something funny's going on up in my house yeah I started thinking maybe I should move out you know pack my car take a new route clean up my yard get the noose out hang up my heart let it air out I've been searching what does that mean Nate I've been learning grabbing my keepsakes leaving my burdens well I brought a few with me I'm not perfect looking

at the view like this concerns me picking up the cues right I'm quite nervous hating when I lose sight life gets blurry and things might hurt me it's probably gonna be a long journey but it's worth it though cold world out there kids grab your coats been a minute I know now I'm back to Rome looking for the antidote to crack the cold but

They're making a whole lot of changes Wrote a song about that, you should play it I get scared when I walk on these stages I look at the crowd and see so many faces Yeah, that's when I start to get anxious That's when my thoughts can be dangerous That's when I put on my makeup and drown in self-hatred Forget what I'm saying and Where the beat go?

Now y'all done it I can be critical, never typical If you give a dappery syllable, I'm a criminal

Leave me deep in thought, I can never swim in a kiddie pool Way that I've been thinking is cinematic, it's beautiful Man, I don't know if I'm making movies or music Videos, videos, videos Yeah, the sales can rise Doesn't mean much, though, when your health declines See, we've all got something that we trapped inside That we try to suffocate, you know, hoping it dies Try to hold it underwater, but it always survives And it comes up out of nowhere like an evil surprise Then it hovers over you to tell you millions of lies You don't relate to that, must not be as crazy as I am

point of making is the mind is a powerful place and what you feed it can affect you in a powerful way it's pretty cool right yeah but it's not always safe just hang with me this will only take a moment okay just think about it for a second if you look at your face every day when you get up and think you'll never be great you'll never be great not because you're not but the hate will always find a way to cut you up and murder your faith take a look at the benefits nothing to matter with i can never be delicate my irrelevant that depends how you measure it take a measurement to back it up and give me the evidence pretty everything dependable can never be tentative i'm a gentleman depending on if i think you're genuine pretty

Keep it to myself when I celebrate, huh?

It's that time again Better grab your balloons and invite your friends See bells back on, yeah, strap them in Look at me, everybody, I'm smiling big On the road right now that I can't predict Tell me, tone that down, but I can't resist Y'all know that sound, better raise your fists The search begins, I'm back, so enjoy the trip, huh?